I love you like the sky loves the sun.
What do I know about it?
Look at the sky when the sun sinks.
It lightens millions of stars with the brightest light to look for the Sun because the Sky sunk too much into misery to do it by itself. Desperate and in anguish it deprives us of its blue beauty because without sun it has no meaning.
I love you that much.
A dragonfly’s ability to carry such a name is of resemblance
Not it to blame.
The wind whirls those insects
In a joyful trip
They hover over ground
Guessing will they dip?
The sun shades the trees
No dream remains dimmed
A cloud or few cover my bare leg’s
No but yes it is some cold
But not to be worried
My soul is living
My heart is sadly buried.
I live my life, I barely live
In my hand a deadly weapon
A rope of straw
In the other a cloth of white cotton.
I sing a song then mute for long
Because my voice kills
When urge recurs
To joy myself
My lips are numb and idle
No shoes on feet
No gloves to warn of heat
No hat for rainy days
Days are numbered
Life is crumbled
All I wait for is the day.
I am lost in words I never said
Those thoughts I have never had
Paths I couldn’t walk on
Mazes I freed myself numb.
Lost in the melody of a frightening sound
I leveled the swampy soil to a cemetery ground
Where crosses and grave stones are pillars to heaven
and every sin I commit as human will make the height of stone there even
I cry some tears more to shake the sea to ocean
if slowly I grasp some water
will serenity peace my motion?
Then heaven’s gates open a way of light to me I feel the warmth on my back
It pierces to the heart of mine I turn to shine the golden back
But as I turn
it burns impaling trough my head
My heart nor me were blind
But it seem s like love and my Deity want to wreck my mind.
It’s painful dull and crazy
To love perish live in dying
When the sun you seek only beams
With unpredictable streams
I sin but only human I am
Or excuses I seek
To justify this restless soul
Which in attempts to blend in the madding crowd
Hides in shadows of self-built stones.
So I grab a bit of love and corner myself into the room of hope
Serenity oh you speck of divinity
How must I fast of your delight.
The spectrum of colors color the light
Losing all hope is to lose this adornment out of sight
Night and all it is
Is for a walking graveyard
The only bliss.
I want to be covered from head to toe
while laying on the cold forest soil
leaves around my freezing body
and be clad in cotton grey and muddy
I want to hear the wolfs howl
and the birds in morning breeze
after I slept on icy roots
of a dead trunk’s hovering shadow.
I want to marble as a figurine
concrete to overcome my heart
the vessels of blood
may lose their flow
to concrete quenching its dry love.
Don’t search for me nor dig to my soul
What you believe is reality is already gone
I am new fresh sober and relaxed
No trace of the person you just met
If you think my head is a mess
Just believe me is all I ask
Roses in serenity do grow
But beauty in love
is what I hope for.
For love is my desire at last
I seek the rosy of blossom
To brush over cheeks of mine
And elevate my bosom
For love to be a thing for me I pray to lovely God
But snow that melted of my hair
Spoiled my body with mud.
You are not my honesty
I love you cause it fits me
I am scared you will be deceived
I am not sure what you receive.
You are a scary thing to love,
a strange thing to hope for.
Be what resembles love.
I don’t know what the future holds
don’t tickle my tongue
if I knew I would run,
I would run now, over the swampy earth
with no rear mirror.
Don’t ask me what I am about to be
I don’t look I don’t search
I don’t see
I feel rain
rain is pouring over me.
I inhale, exhale, believe
and come back to be the original me.
Hope is not a remedy and once it gets me I will flee
for if I grasp the idea
that what I dream has a way to live
live, breathe, believe
If I give birth to hope, and start to see what is ahead of me
oh you who ask me this
I will disappear
and show you my soul and scars
I don’t miss.